street lights, people.
24 Aug 2011 1 Comment
i’ve come to believe that over time, things always work out.
there have been times where i’ve been misunderstood and outcast, or fallen victim to the bad side of bias. some times were justified, and others were simply not at all. none of the less it happens.
during the times that i tried to “fix” things and solve it all, i almost made things worse. i would try to come up with reasons for why i was right but in all the wrong ways. so after a while i just stopped. i let it go, because there are things worth correcting right away and other things that are better left for people to figure out on their own.
it’s a much better place to be, having let go. and i’m not saying to not stand up for yourself. you should. what i am saying is, don’t stress over it all too much. if you persevere through the bad times when it seems like everyone hates your guts and you’re alone… people eventually see the truth of who you are. keep going, be kind, and they will understand one day.
if all that “falling into place” stuff doesn’t happen, then find a new audience to dance for. there’s so many people in the world…
tumblr?
15 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
in your thoughts? Tags: blogs, other sites, places i visit, tumblr, yugioh, zelda
i realized that lately i’ve been visiting a lot of tumblr sites! thus, i thought i’d share a few favourites. =)
oh and PS, these aren’t all G rated… explore at your own risk ;)
brotips
quality animation
ballet chihuahua
zeldaproblems
screw the rules!
fy twilight princess
clearly my tumblr faves at the moment are a bit on the geek side, but that’s just who i am! tell me some good tumblrs to check out. what are your favourites? =)
the other one should take your place.
14 Jul 2011 Leave a Comment
in your thoughts? Tags: casey anthony, journal entries, not guilty, rage, upsetness
terrible how this one turned out but i guess i feel like talking about it, so here it goes.
during the trip i mentioned the casey anthony trial many times. i mentioned how she gave me the chills because she looked so heartless and guilty, and also how that upset me because that doesn’t count as evidence. i mentioned how her lawyer kinda sucks (who smelled what, anyone?). and of course, i mentioned her verdict.
July 5, 2011 (AKA worst day ever!)
Dear Diary,
AHH! What is wrong with the world? I haven’t been so interested in something media related since ever, really. And I thought for sure she’d be guilty of something. Maybe not 1st Degree but something less perhaps. But no, Casey Anthony was found not guilty. How is that possible?
I’m on the road right now. We’ve all been listening to the radio since yesterday, waiting for the jury to make a good decision. I guess it wasn’t as clear to them as it was to me… I don’t know. Maybe the whole story tugs on my heartstrings a bit. I teared up in disbelief as we heard it on the radio you know.
God, this is horrible… Well, at least home is coming soon. Then I can have a good cup of tea; it’ll help me feel at least a little bit better about this…
dyac.
26 May 2011 2 Comments
in your thoughts? Tags: autocorrect, dyac, iphone, texting
HAHAHAHA! found this just now on my new favourite site. click on the photo, it’ll take you to the site and actual post. =)
neurotic.
19 May 2011 Leave a Comment
in your thoughts? Tags: bad habits, fears, habits, nails, phobia
i’ve recently realized how neurotic i am. actually, i might be borderline crazy. but it’s not seen in big signs, you know. it’s all in the little things.
yesterday at dance, miss vanessa kept telling another girl to stop picking at her fingers. then we got into the conversation of biting our nails. miss vanessa said her teacher would force her to dip her hands into resin so she wouldn’t bite them anymore. claudia said she paints her nails. then i started rambling.
“oh, yeah. i paint them too. but it doesn’t always work so i decided i’d keep them really short. i cut them every week, on friday. sometimes again on monday if they feel too long.”
and then i stopped because i realized i was sounding like a psycho.
so i’ve been thinking about it and i think that actually, one of my biggest active phobias is having long nails. don’t get me wrong, i love the look of long nails on other people, and i envy the fact that they aren’t afraid of their own nails. because as soon as my nails (fingers and toes) reach a certain length, they HAVE to be cut or else i start getting anxious.
i’m not sure exactly why, but i think i’m just afraid of them getting caught in the floors when i dance, or maybe snapping off when i open up a key chain, or maybe even scratching myself in my sleep. and most importantly, what if my toenails just fall off because they’re too long underneath my pointe shoes? those all come to mind. but i sound pretty crazy still.
seattle adventures!
07 Feb 2011 1 Comment
in dance, your thoughts? Tags: ballet, dance, love, summer intensives, valentines day
hello there!
my goodness, i feel like i haven’t been keeping my new years resolution to write more! i’m sorry, lovelies. lately i’ve been going to lots of summer intensive auditions for ballet. i haven’t gotten accepted into any so far (two rejections, waiting on two more, one left to audition for). it’s pretty tough to get a rejection letter from some and then still have to wait for another company’s answer!
my most recent audition was for the san francisco ballet. it was a hard audition, and the instructor didn’t go through the exercises for longer than 30 seconds (which is good for my memory, right? haha!) but it was actually quite fun and i enjoyed having class with him. i tried my best and recovered from the odd fumble here and there. =)
going to auditions really helps me see where my technique is in comparison to other girls my age. i think we all have our strong points and weak points, so for me, it’s just eliminating some of my weak points and strengthening core technique! i think i need to work mostly on picking up petit allegro faster and cleaning up some pirouettes, so there’s a new checklist for me! =)
moving on, valentines day is coming up! let me know what your plans are, if you have any. sending you all my love! <3 i'll write soon.
dream help?
20 Jan 2011 2 Comments
in your thoughts? Tags: dreams, symbolism
lately, i’ve been having pretty weird dreams.
i know that mostly dreams are weird anyway, but lately i’ve been experiencing exceptionally strange ones. though i do love looking up possible symbolism for dreams and whatnot, i’m not an expert or anything! these are some recurring themes, or events that happen almost every night. i was was wondering if maybe you guys have some ideas as to what they may mean? =)
- ordering food or being at a restaurant. this almost always happens, and i order food but never eat it or it never arrives.
- bathroom maze. this one is weird so i’ll explain, haha! it starts with me going to a public washroom, and there’s only one stall available. it looks normal and clean but it’s locked, so i search for another. suddenly the bathroom is large and almost like a maze/cave, and everything is dark and grungy. the further i go, the more surreal it gets, and usually i wake up after this because i can never find my way out.
- watching an event happen, then a moment later being part of that event. no real explanation here, other than it feels like i’m watching something occur, and then i’m warped back to the beginning, except this time i’m actually part of what’s going on instead of watching from afar.
- being in an abandoned house. usually the house looks familiar, as if i’ve been there before, but i almost always have this urgency to get out of there before the owners return.
- seeing a loved one injured/hearing of their injury. i either have to take care of them, or i get a phone call from them telling me that they hurt themselves and need me to come see them.
- being aware of fingernails. i spend a good amount of time noticing them, commenting on them, or being upset with how they look. last night was pretty odd, as they were chipped, broken and scratched, but they didn’t hurt and only bothered me for a moment.
hmm… leaves me pondering.
birthmarks.
10 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in misc, your thoughts? Tags: cardgamesftw, favourite shows, mmm mmm mmm mmm, movies, music, tv, ygotas, yugioh, yugioh the abridged series
i have a couple new favourites to share with you guys today!
firstly, CardGamesFTW got his channel back after being suspended again on youtube. glad to have you back, Martin! he uploaded a video called Crash Test Yami, which covers this song. ever since listening to the original, i’ve realized it’s my new favourite song! i can’t stop listening to it for some reason. i think it’s strangely beautiful, actually. (of course, the cover is funny too, haha. =P)
secondly, i also have a new favourite show. around every major “break” in the year (christmas, spring break, etc) mom and i go searching for new shows to watch. because i dance until late at night, it’s hard to keep up with shows from week to week, so we now watch stuff on netflix or apple tv. so far we’ve found great shows like dexter, six feet under, and true blood.
now, we’re hooked on huff! it’s about a psychiatrist who has a mid-life crisis after one of his patients commit suicide. i cannot BELIEVE it was cancelled, but, i am only on season one and i have no idea what’s in store for season two. maybe it wasn’t as great, who knows. at this point though, i love it. =) i can’t find any good clips or trailers/promos right now, but if i do, i’ll post one.
sew my heart back together.
09 Jan 2011 2 Comments
in friends and family, misc, your thoughts? Tags: good deeds, karma, moving on, new years resolutions
last year, i spent a lot of time damaging myself.
things were going great, but in my mind i could do nothing but think doubtful thoughts. and on the outside, i could do nothing but surround myself with poison. it was like for a moment last january, my instincts had shut off and before i knew it, it was too late; i was already sipping in the poison and it was all over me, and all inside me. it was very sad and though i don’t regret it, i think that one of my choices last year was the worst one i’ve ever made.
but it’s a new year, a fresh start! and i’m very happy to say, i am poison-less. sans poison. i feel totally new (again) and i’m ready to face the world with a whole new strength alongside me. every year gets better, after all. i’m very grateful for all the friends and family that surround me today and without them, i don’t think i would have healed as quickly as i have. =)
i don’t like making new years resolutions usually, because i find i always become disappointed when i don’t meet them. however, i’m positive i can do it this time! so, my resolutions are:
- to write more posts! not just about every day stuff, but short stories and poems too.
- to do a small good deed every day, and a big giant one every month (anonymously).
- to give someone flowers this year. yes brett, you inspired me on this one!
- to eat healthier.
- to write more thank you notes/cards. many people do good things, but are often not thanked for it. they deserve something in return, even if it’s as little as a flowery post-it! =)
- to stick with the schedule that i’ve given myself in my agenda.
those are the major ones for now! =) have a good evening, readers. <3
EDIT: reading back on this, i’ve noticed it sounds like i was an alcoholic for a brief period of my life, at least that how it sounded to me!! so just clarifying, that’s not what i meant. XD
about a month through!
15 Nov 2010 4 Comments
in your thoughts? Tags: braces
i’ve had my braces for about a month now and i’m VERY happy with how things are going!
i have to admit, sometimes my teeth really hurt because they’re moving so much. but it’s really nice to finally have somewhat straight teeth, even if the work isn’t done just yet! =) i’m so excited to see how my teeth look once everything is done!
i have a question, though, for those who have had clear brackets… do you find your teeth stain easily? i’m always fighting off stains lately and that’s the only downside to having these on. maybe it’s just the food i’m eating, who knows! =P
remembrance day, plus peta.
11 Nov 2010 2 Comments
in misc, your thoughts? Tags: animal testing, companies, lancome, peta, remembrance day, safe
it’s remembrance day today. it’s always an emotional day for me, and yet an inspiring one. i don’t think i could ever be so brave to put my life on the line for my country, but i’m so grateful for those that are. <3 lest we forget…
on another note, i’ve recently gotten into being aware of companies that conduct animal testing. i recently heard that lancome tests on animals, and though i don’t use it, i knew that their parent company was l’oreal. this worried me, because l’oreal also owns cosmetic brands such as garnier, maybelline, and cover girl, all of which i use/have used before! unfortunately, if the parent company tests on animals, i will no longer be using ANY of the company branches.
i don’t believe in wasting anything either, so i will use up the makeup/cosmetics that i own right now, but in the future i will no longer be buying from l’oreal or other companies that test on animals. as much as i liked maybelline’s falsies and stiletto mascaras, i won’t be recommending them anymore; in fact i’ll discourage usage! sorry l’oreal, but until you change, i’m not buying from you. =(
click here for information from peta.
PS i’m not only boycotting cosmetic brands, but other household items too. it’s going to be tough but it’s so worth it! =)
you know, that girl?
19 Oct 2010 4 Comments
reminds me of michelle phan a little bit… if you know what i mean.
click to enlarge. i want to know what you guys think, though. do you think i’m reading into the similarities too much, or is it obvious?
also, this sparks a new discussion! yay! do you think imitation is the sincerest form of flattery? tell me your thoughts in the comment section =)
safe, clean water for children.
15 Oct 2010 3 Comments
in your thoughts? Tags: blog action day 2010, charity, clean water, donations, fundraise, petition
one in eight of us do not have clean drinking water. 42,000 deaths occur every week due to all the bacteria women, men, and children consume out of desperation for something to drink. 90% of those deaths are children under five years old.
information via why water, on charity:water.org
i’m the oldest sister of four children in my family. often times i am taking care of them and looking out for them. my youngest sister is six. i can’t imagine her life being taken away because of something that can be prevented, and something that others can help provide: clean, safe drinking water.
it is an absolute tragedy to know that thousands of people are dying every day, but there’s so much you can do. blog action day 2010 has a petition on their site, which you can sign here. there is also a fundraising page.
on charitywater.org, you can make a donation, fundraise, or buy t-shirts, bracelets, and more with all proceeds going towards clean water projects.
as for what i’m doing? i’m usually always buying ethos water, and tonight i’ll either be purchasing some clothing items from charity:water or making a donation.
please check out these sites and sign the petition. a little help goes a long way, and you could save the lives of young children and their parents.
H2O.
13 Oct 2010 3 Comments
in your thoughts? Tags: awareness, blog action day, help, water
hello everyone. i tried making this into widget but it wouldn’t work… if anyone can help me figure out why, that’d be great!
anyway, to the point, this post will be stuck to the front page until the weekend comes. i’m participating in blog action day 2010, and i hope you will too! basically, it’s bringing awareness to the fact that almost a billion people right now have no access to safe drinking water. you can go to www.blogactionday.change.org for more information.
thanks to brett for bringing this to my attention! =)
