February 8, 2010
yikes, reading back on my post yesterday makes me see how sad i was. but it also makes me see how temporary it was. i guess subbing dance classes really cheers me up. i love seeing the students slowly improving under my watch. it’s pretty cool. =)
also, i watched the Gamer. it was an awful movie… only saw it for michael c. hall, but he didn’t do a good job at saving it. at all. horrible writing…
February 7, 2010
i don’t understand, and i can’t seem to stop. it feels good when i push you away, but at the same time it feels terrible. because the yearning to stand up for myself finally, is as strong as my longing to make you happy.
there’s so many questions i have for myself. if i love you, why am i so angry? why did i wait this long, just to let it go, push it away? why did i spend so much time being careful, to suddenly be careless? tip toe, tip toe. don’t make her upset. it’s turning into what can i do to make her tip toe around me?
i suppose… a million little things is no lighter than a single burden. breaking the element into many, doesn’t make it less of an element. and the burden is too heavy to smile under.
February 4, 2010
February 1, 2010
enchantress, i’m
to be burned, but free of scars
to be hurt, but forget
to hate, but fall
in love tomorrow.
enchantress, you’ve
lost your magic
relinquish me
it’s done, your swings have made me dizzy
and i’m finished, until tomorrow.
January 29, 2010
if you don’t like something, don’t read, watch, imitate or experience it.
if it upsets you, don’t dwell on it.
don’t give things attention if you think it’s untrue,
don’t support the love when you think it’s fake,
and don’t keep coming back when you’ve made your exit months ago, stud.
January 29, 2010
today, i drove out to the middle of nowhere chilliwack (left the house at 7:30… *sobs*) to write my science 10 provincial! woo!
before every exam, mom and i decide on a time for when i should finish.
“actually, could you finish in 30 minutes please?”
“sounds good.”
obviously i didn’t finish my provincial in half an hour. that was just an example. another thing i decide is how many marks i should aim for; the bare minimum.
so, for my provincial i calculated that i should get no more than 10 or 11 questions incorrect if i want an A. and there were about 3 questions i was seriously unsure about, so that should work out great! i think i was just so nervous going into the exam that i was panicking over little things. after a while it was fine, though. i just really need an A to bring my mark up. my final grade was 84%, and it’s just not good enough! especially because i love science so much. i’m only lower because i did average/bad on a chemistry exam. not faaaair! *whines*
i guess it bothers me because an A is 86%, and if you’re so close to getting an A, why not do everything in your power to up your percentage?
anyways, i saw mr. spann briefly. didn’t get to talk to him or anything sadly, but at least i know what he looks like. it’s weird cause i had this image in my head of what he would look like. then i saw him for real, and he looks so different!
January 28, 2010
ps: it’s opposite day.
January 25, 2010
on friday i get to have my science provincial. woohoo!
which means, i think i get to finally meet my science teacher. i think, i think. i hope. it’d be cool if i could. it’s interesting to have teachers online and never being able to put a face with the words they send you. perhaps a face will belong to all those emails soon.
in other news, i totally miss mr. harris and his classes. ahh. =(
January 22, 2010
lately, life has been great. i can’t help but smile at what’s happening right now. dance is great, life is good. plus this song is making me even more happy! haha.
although, i’ve been thinking lately about energy and how people can “sense” things will happen. and now i realize, i can sense things too. before jaeden broke her arm, i could just feel something itching inside my heart, something crawling under my skin, but i didn’t understand what. and two seconds later, she fell and her arm was broken.
before mrs. grant died, i could sense something was amiss, even though i was enjoying my friday night. and the morning after, the world felt empty, and it still does. as if an energy or aura is missing, there’s a gap on the planet where a dancing spirit should be.
and so now, i feel like something’s about to happen but i don’t know what. all i can hope is that happiness continues and that this next big thing will be a good one.
January 20, 2010
Honestly…
1. Are you single – single and searching!
2. Are you happy – yes, very much so.
3. What song are you listening to – You Don’t Know My Name – Vitamin String Quartet
4. Are you funny – sometimes, my craziness can make you laugh or freak you out. you decide. =)
5. Are you Italian – nopers!
6. Are you pregnant – no, but that’s a good thing.
7. Are you tired- kinda, but i’m excited for today.
8. Are you nice – for the most part, but i’ll only be nice if you’re nice too.
9. Are you Irish – nope, scottish!
10. Are you Asian- yaaah!
TEN FACTS
1. Full Name – kaela double-u.
2. Nicknames – kae, kae-kae, baby kae-kae…
3. Birth place – Langleytownland
4. Hair color – brown, wine, and tinges of pinkish blonde. can’t wait to get it redone so it’s reddish again.
5. Natural hair style – straight, wavy edges
6. Eye color – brown or copper. depends on the day.
7. Birthday – june three zero
8. Mood – happy.
9. Favorite color – purple or green
10. One Place to Visit – ruuuski =)
TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love – yes i have.
2. Do you believe in love at first sight – no, attraction at first sight but not love.
3. Last time you kissed someone – a while ago.
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally – mhm…
5. Have you ever broken someone’s heart – probably. but they needed to understand they couldn’t ask more from me.
6. Have you ever had your heart broken – yeah, in a way.
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them – story of my life!
8. Are you afraid of commitment – not really. i’m just overall unwilling to date new people. haven’t found someone right…
9. Who was the last person you hugged – my little sister. =)
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to – becky
TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust – love =)
2. liquor or beer – liquor
3. Cats or Dogs- neither.
4. A few best friends or many regular friends – a few best friends.
5. Television or Internet – internet!
6. Friends or Family – a bit of both
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – either works for me.
8. Money or Happiness – happiness =) after all, dancers don’t make much…
9. Night or Day- night.
10. IM or phone – doesn’t matter.
TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out – yeah.
2. Purposly hurt someone – yes… *blush* =)
3. Done something you regret – no regrets. mistakes are lessons to be learned, and you should be as thankful for them as you are with successes.
4. Bungee jumped – no but i want to!
5. Been so embarrassed that you actually cried – haha, probably when i was really little.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker – nope. i get frustrated.
7. Gotten stuck in an elevator – no, thank god. i’d start crying.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back – nah, not when i really didn’t have one to begin with.
9. Cried because you lost a pet – yes =(
10. Wanted to disappear- kinda, but it was temporary.
TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes – both go hand in hand… don’t they?
2. Light or dark hair – dark
4. Shorter or taller – doesn’t matter but i prefer shorter. no taller than my height.
5. Intelligence or attraction – both! but i don’t care for academic excellence, i just need someone somewhat smart.
6. Romantic or spontaneous – both. why not?
7. Funny or serious – funny, but knows when to be serious.
8. Older or Younger – doesn’t matter to me.
9. Outgoing or quiet – outgoing!
10. Sweet or Bad Ass- sweet =)
TEN HAVE YOU’S
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd – yessir. story of my life.
2. Ever done drugs – nope! the most i’ve done is ibuprofen, and that wasn’t for the high.
3. Ever been pregnant – no. no no no.
4. Ever kissed the same gender – yup.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – haha, no!
6. Ever Been on a dance team – err, well not a dance team… but i dance! lots!
7. Ever been on a sports team – nope =P i’m lame like that.
8. Ever been in a play- yes i have
9. Ever said I love you- of course, who hasn’t?
10. Ever been in a rap video – no, haha.
TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made – let’s check… apparently it was sheila, but i think i was helping her find her phone.
2. Last person you kissed – =)
3. Last person you hung out with – does aidan and tracey count? yeah, starbucks counts.
4. Last time you worked – while ago
5. Last person you tackled – i don’t usually tackle people…
6. Last person you IM’d – spencer
7. Last person you texted – cierrabear
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with – matthew and shereen
10. Last person you were in a car with – mommy
5 Firsts
Very First Best Friend: emily b.
Very First Car: haven’t had one… *sniffle*
Very First Screen: er, what?
First Piercing: earlobes
First Crush: oooh. well my first crush i had was when i was five. his name was matthew j. and i’m pretty sure he thought i was crazy.
5 Lasts
Last Food You Ate: i haven’t eaten anything but cereal today… =S
Last Movie You Watched: Avatar! but if at home counts, then Antz
Last CD You Listened To: John Mayer’s new CD…
Last Song You Listened To: move for me
Last Words You Said : “my arms are so sore.”
7 Have-You-Evers
Dated A Best Friend: no.
Been Arrested: nope! haha =P
Been On TV: maybe. you know how they film those news people at the pne every year?
Eaten Sushi: OF COURSE.
Cheated on a test: umm… yes =) forgive me, mr. harris. but it was only one little term i didn’t remember so i wrote it on a note. i know you still love me though! =)
Been On A Blind Date: never before.
Been Out Of The Country: mhm!
6 Things You Are Wearing
1: jeans
2: t-shirt
3: hair elastic on wrist
4: earrings
5: undies
6: bra
6 Things You’ve Done Today
1: ate breakfast
2: studied for socials
3: took a shower.
4: studied for science
5: cleaned my room
6: filled this out!
6 Favorite Things
1. dance =)
2: movies!
3: a good science textbook.
4: my sisters
5: my friends
6: her.
January 16, 2010
hey everyone. so my recent post before this one is password protected because, i need advice on something (nothing serious, no worries!) but i don’t want to offend anyone with the question.
if you’d like the password, let me know and i’ll send it to you through email or facebook.
January 16, 2010
January 15, 2010
i decided that i’d finally organize all my emails into folders so my main inbox doesn’t have a billion emails in them. it looks much neater now so that’s good! i feel more tidy. =)
out of emails worth keeping, here are my stats (for one account, anyway):
emails that are dance related – 86
emails that are school related – 22
emails from family – 76
emails from friends – 29
emails considered miscellaneous - 9
emails considered hilarious, or good blackmail material – 27
